I am 32 weeks pregnant. I am 32 weeks pregnant. I am 32 weeks pregnant.
I am repeating myself in hopes urgency will set in. I have done very little for this one’s pending arrival. I attribute my lack of preparation, up until this point, to chasing around a toddler. he keeps me so busy + as I grow larger, occasionally winded. it is hard work keeping up with him + carrying around this belly!
my mom was tired of waiting for me to “be ready” to assemble the nursery. so, she bought + shipped a crib to our house. it was a LARGE HINT. the crib arrived just before christmas. since, we’ve relocated the rocking chair from jackson’s room to the nursery (and turned jackson’s empty corner into an adorable reading nook – see it here). the room was formerly a guest room + office. the husband graciously moved the bed, desk + cleaned out the closet. the newborn to 3 month clothes, some new + some hand-me-downs from big brother, are washed and will very soon be put away in the nursery. now, we just need newborn essentials (like diapers), a dresser, a fully stocked changing station, and to pack our hospital bag.
I am feeling every kind of emotion leading up to our second baby’s arrival.
I am so excited to meet this little boy, to have a cuddly newborn (who can’t run from me), to introduce jackson to his brother, and to add to our family. but I am terrified about so much too. I so desperately want him to arrive into this world healthy. jackson being rushed out of my arms + into the NICU moments after he was born and for two of the longest weeks of my life was incredibly difficult. (he is 100% healthy now, but clearly my emotional scars remain! read jackson’s birth story here). I am scared of labor + delivery – ignorance was bliss the first time around. now, I know! I’m nervous about my ability to be a good mom to a busy toddler + a tiny newborn. I really want jackson to feel as much love as possible while his world shifts in a big way. I am anxious about caring for myself + new (again) body on very little sleep + being a mom to two. just to name a few.
I keep telling + reminding myself: you’ve raised one really great little boy – you can do it again. you don’t get much say in how everything shakes out, so extend yourself some grace to feel all the feels + know you’ll figure it out.
32 weeks pregnant with baby two.
for the next 8 (ish) weeks, I’ll be spending every possible moment being a mom to my toddler – playing chef, reading every book, singing “twinkle twinkle little star”, spoiling him with hot cocoa, and having painting parties. and being a wife to my husband. the newborn months can be so rough, with very little sleep. even more so this time around, since we’ll have two babies that need our attention. I’ll appreciate + be grateful for this body of my mine, in all its rapidly growing glory, as it nurtures this babe until he decides to make his appearance.
slight side note: this cozy grey maternity sweater is EVERYTHING! when I find a maternity piece I feel comfortable in (excluding lounge wear), it’s like hitting the jackpot! I quickly fell in love + bought it in every color I could get my hands on. (I have it in a darker grey + deep purple).
for fun, take a peek back at my 32 weeks pregnant update with jackson. it’s crazy how similar this pregnancy has been.